Many of you know that I am in seminary. Many of you also know that I have sent my resumé to every corner of the United States, looking for a youth pastor position. This process has been best described as crazy go nuts, and I am going to report to you another unbelievable part of this process.
I recently interviewed for a church that is not only out of state, but not even in the same time zone. I interviewed at a church in western North Carolina. This church had everything that I was looking for in a church. The salary was right in line for what I was looking for, had benefits, an allowance for health insurance, a healthy youth budget, and most importantly, they wanted me. In fact, I was told that I was their unanimous choice, and they put on a full court press sales pitch. And that is why it was incredibly hard to pass.
That’s right, the position that I have sought for such a long time, I have turned down. I really can’t explain why turned it down this opportunity, outside of the fact that I felt an overwhelming sense that God was leading me away from this particular position. In essence, I did not feel a peace about this, and that is why I walked away.
My feelings are conflicted. In one sense, I feel a peace about the decision. I think that it was definitely the right decision to make, and don’t regret it a bit. My wife and I spent a substantial amount of time praying, thinking, talking, and stressing over this choice, and not once were we in disagreement about our course of action. On the other hand, it is frustrating, because in essence it offered a culmination in a long, crazy road, and did so in way that I fit into my expectations for this position. In the end, a culmination that God is not in is not a culmination at all, and it will end poorly.
Thanks for your continued prayers for peace and discernment as I continue to try to listen to what God is telling me, and go where He is leading.